DO YOU THINK ?

Do you think its easy being me ?

Do you think its easy putting on the act that I do everyday ?

I smile when all I want to do is cry.

I laugh when all I want to do is die.

I want to tell everyone how my world falls apart each night when I am laying in bed with tears in my eyes, pleading with god to help me.

I want to let everyone know what it like to be me, pretending to be happy, pretending to like myself, if it was up to me, I wouldn't be pretending, I would actually be happy.

Too bad its not.